Oh so dreams do come true

You're better than my dreams, you're real.

On that note, look what I found...

Cinderelly Cinderelly :)

Yeouch

I'm such a klutz :(

What a curse!

Wht life's abt

It's crazy. I was sure Facebook would be my worst addiction. Tumblr proved me wrong. I managed to stop going on Tumblr for about a month or so but as you can probably figure out, now I'm on it 3/4 of my day. The other 1/4 is for Facebook on certain days. Muahaha

Blackjack

Today's the 21st of April :( I don't wanna tell you what's coming but I will tell you this. Luke said he used to call (i don't know if you still call it this :P) but anyway he calls my blog Rantings of an Old Lady. I told Hum this and she went "soon thira, soon".

Damn.

Nah. For your amusement. Or not.

I won't be writing much on blogspot anymore, few times a month maybe. I've become too addicted to Tumblr. More than Facebook if you must know.

Okay then. Cheerio.

If I could say what I wanna say

:D

Remember this song?

Things I'll Never Say.

Damsel in a dress

Just something I got off Gossip Girl.

I have absolutely nothing to say. but I wanna write. Clicking of keyboards, it's music people. It's music.

Okay so I'm going to just ramble. Guess how I eat my cereal. Like this:

Pour

• cereal
• milk
• bananas(sedap gila)
• strawberries(sometimes ar)
• digestive biscuits(digestive light)

Oh man. It's so good, I'm not kidding. But don't wait till the biscuits disintegrate, don't leave it in the milk for more than like... one minute- or it'll be like... sand in your cereal. Ok cool.

OR! Bread right.. Chocolate spread with bananas!!! So good! Oh gosh. If you're like so lazy to slice the bananas, you just spread bread with chocolate and just wrap the banana with it! Like a hotdog. Damn. Sedap.

Oh look, this picture has peaches and what seems to be grapes in the bowl. Maybe tomorrow morning eh :)

I've been spending lots of time watching How I Met Your Mother. Hoyyyy talk abt bringing funny to a whole new level.

Hypothetical high five!

I've put some episodes in my iPod and I think I probably look weird laughing alone in the tram. Oh well. But seriously man! Lawak gila.

I'm thinking how the heck the writers come up with the material. Damn awesome! They're so smart kan kan! I mean it's one thing to make a joke wey serious shit and these people make like 50 jokes per episode, say what! I know!

I wanna work with these people doh.

Okay random. My favourite subject is anatomy.

and what's up with the wind blowing sand in my eyes. Ouch.

I am so lazy to get my butt out of bed and get ready for school, like seriously, I'm all for I-don't-wanna-care-how-I-look-here-in-Egypt. I wish I could just wake up, brush teeth, go straight to lectures and come back. Simple eh

I had this conversation with my mom dulu, I was all " I don't have enough things to wear" and she was all you have enough etc. and I was saying how I was a fashion repeater and she was " you think you're a celebrity ke". Point taken mom. But just for the record, I told her I am a celebrity...in my world of course.

Don't deny it

This is so unfair!

Ah screw it. Zzzz

My heart's desire

I know exactly how I'm gonna react to the situation. I've been studying me for 20 years. I know how Athirah works. Once I'm all strapped up and standing at the edge I'd be thinking why the hell I really wanted to do this. Lets not get started on my heart, this one I know for sure. It's gonna pound so hard and fast, it'll beat like crazy that I'm gonna feel it in my ears. I'm gonna want to back out but I know I musn't. I have to do this. Have to. Have to. I've been thinking about it for years. I'll try to lose all senses and just go for it and eventually... I will jump. It'll mean so much to me, so much you can't imagine. And that's why the people watching me jump will be the people I really really love because if I can't push myself to do it, I'm gonna do it for them. Not just anyone. I'd wanna see their faces first when I've actually done one of the things I've wanted to do all my life. I really want mom and dad to see this but I don't reckon they'd wanna see their daughter jump of a bridge.

Here's the thing. I'm not that brave. Has always been a weakness. Heights. Driving. Holding bugs. Exam results. There was one time I went to this shop and the owner was holding baby alligators and he wanted me to hold them and I was so freaked out but I'm thinking if I don't touch it I'll be such a wuss and I managed to hold it and the feeling of accomplishment really makes me happy. Yeah I shouldn't reveal much of my fears, you might use it against me lol. Tsk tsk insecurity.

If I do this, I can finally go easy on myself and stop trying to prove to me that I can do something even if that something scares me. It's a deal I made with me. ugh. Thinking about standing at the edge scares me already but contradicting as it is, it's my heart's desire. I'm actually longing to feel that adrenaline rush that I'll get when I'm up there.

Maybe this isn't a big deal for you but it's a really big deal for me if I'm scared to do something. It just is.