Fairy Dust

March is over already???

i guess time flies even when you're not having fun XP .. i can't believe it, since when did i start to grow up? i used to think i'd be 10 forever...

well i always knew that everyone would grow up.. i just never thought it would, well you know, actually happen to me.

really, i used to think there's a million years to go before i actually reach 18... always thought it'll take years and years till i get to drive a car or own a laptop...

don't get me wrong, it's nice to be finally old enough to do these grown up things like buy your own stuff and go wherever you want to without having a door shut to your face because you're not legal... it's awesome, it really is... it's just.. i dunno,

i missed the age when i wasn't in charge of my own life (but my parents were). missed not having to give a crap of how i look like or what i eat or what i do and if i made a mistake, it's not really that big of a deal. never had to worry about a thing in the universe. oooh yeaaah, those were the times.

it's not only the things that i get to do are different, then and now, but it's me too. i'd say i've become a very different person than i was before and i'm starting to miss the old me... sigh, it's not showing any mercy is it, the years, changing everything along the way.

i really miss it when i had strict rules to abide to.. haha well actually it was fun to break them.. sigh..

i guess i’m happy now just like i was happy being a kid, it’s really just in different ways…

what i’m trying to say is…

i wish i had followed Peter Pan to Never Neverland when he wanted to take me there.